have officially started and i've enjoyed every part of day one. today lance and i managed righteous pups now that we have our new car and can actually get there and back without any drama's whatsoever and that felt good.....really really good!!!
yep last thursday we purchased a 2008 holden commodore omega and last saturday morning we brought our new baby home. friday morning it went in to have the windows tinted to suit our needs and to keep all things legal and saturday morning just before pick up a complete car care package (fifth dimension) was done on both outside and inside of the car and the car looks simply fab.u.lous!!!!
pictures will arrive on the blog of our new car over the next couple of days i promise as i truly have been busy even though now the stress of having a reliable car has been sorted out my situation is still very very busy....but somewhat busy in a very new way and in a very new role and something i will share with you real soon i promise. in the mean time i am trying to find my feet a little and seems like i've taken the plunge and dived straight in but all for a very worthwhile and amazing cause.
school holidays have started as i mentioned a little earlier and the very title of this blog post and i really have enjoyed day one so far. things have gone really well today and that is really good. living the life we do means everyday is predictably unpredictable and we take the bad with the good, the good with the bad and try to manage moment by moment....day by day as best we can given the fact that hubby and i really are only human with no super powers or extraterrestrial gifts of any sort.
sometimes life throws some real curve balls our way...i could simply walk away and not deal with them and therefore not try but if i did that it would mean setting my children up to fail and i'm not like that.....or i can learn to catch them and use them positively and for good reason and for good cause. remember you can't fail if you keep trying...once you stop trying, you start failing and life is far too precious to give up on your loved ones or more importantly yourself.
i've walked a very painful journey my whole life, i've been bullied not only as a child but as a grown woman in my 30's and 40's and seeing as i'm 43 now, that bullying has left deep irreversible damage with agonising results. the impact has been horrendous but for the past 3 to 4 weeks i've stood tall and i've stood strong because my husband and my family mean the world to me and because they are worth every bit of it. i will no longer listen to those that thought they new best, i will no longer deal with "their" issues because they feel like telling me how things should be even though they have no idea what life for us is like, i will no longer allow these people to stand over me and treat me like i'm the lowest form of life in this world and they think i don't matter. well guess what this time i've taken back control and this time i've made a stand. if loving my husband and my children and wanting the best for them in every way possible is a problem to certain people then that's just it...it's your problem and not mine and we don't need it or you in our lives.
sometimes you just gotta take the bull by the horns and do what you have to do and that's what tim and i have done recently. not an easy decision to make and one that in itself was incredibly stressful for both tim and i although prior to making it, it was causing us stress and unrest beyond imaginable measure and although i prefer not to delve to deep into what tim and i have gone through for many years...lets just say we are learning to breathe once again for ourselves.
life sure does through a range of challenges at us....learning to weigh them up and balance them is something we all need to learn. work through the priorities, work through what's right and best for you and your loved ones, listen to advice but only advice that is worth taking onboard and remember to always listen to your heart!!!
till next time take care and stay true to yourself. for those of you on school holidays, stay calm, stay sane and above all....enjoy life. remember when things are getting tough, there is always someone out there, yep another person, couple or family that are doing it even tougher. hugs xoxo
Monday, 28 June 2010
Friday, 25 June 2010
poor poor neglected blog
it's so sad i know....i can't even keep up with blogging these days and i had every intention to do so at least weekly. anyhoo sad thing is i haven't and as much i've written an entire book on excuses and very good ones at that for why i haven't been able to keep up....who's gonna read it.....lol
life is plodding along for us here one day at a time....yep we're no different to anyone else there.....lol but it's up and down like a yo-yo either spinning out of control or completed knotted and stuck in a rut.
there is heaps to say but man i won't bore you with the finer details however i will mention that we're finally getting a new car....yep the ford has to go and it's time to replace it with something more reliable and capable of actually starting, driving, staying on the road and getting us to and fro.....so tomorrow morning we take ownership of a new car....well a 2008 commodore and i simply can't wait....in fact none of us can but we have one more sleep to get through and then we bring our new baby home in the morning.
what else is news with the dudes here....school holidays have officially started and i am so looking forward to 2 weeks of no school runs....there are still appointments but no school runs and i ♥ that!!! sleep in's, wintery days, rain, boredom, kids fighting, kids nagging.....yep gonna enjoy the lot....hehehehe and when it all get's too much i'll be able to jump in the car and go for a drive.
actually tim and i are going to spend some of the school holiday's ripping up carpet, lino, tiles and revealing the awesome floor boards that sit underneath all that in very good condition ready to sand and seal. we hope to repair the plaster walls in grace's room and prepare it for painting as soon as the warmer weather appears, look at some new bathroom goodies like shower and handbasin and paint colours to redo the inside of the house and do part of the back yard and garden and front yard with stones, pavers and a little of this and that....yep we're on a mission.
anyhoo quick and simple tonight just to touch base and say hey yep i am in the land of the living even if it's in zombie mode. oki doki signing off for now and i'll post pics of the new car asap....ahhh i can't wait but of course i have to....only one more sleep though.
for all those parents out there ready to embark on 2 weeks of school holidays...stay strong, stay calm and remember to breathe. hugs chris xoxo
life is plodding along for us here one day at a time....yep we're no different to anyone else there.....lol but it's up and down like a yo-yo either spinning out of control or completed knotted and stuck in a rut.
there is heaps to say but man i won't bore you with the finer details however i will mention that we're finally getting a new car....yep the ford has to go and it's time to replace it with something more reliable and capable of actually starting, driving, staying on the road and getting us to and fro.....so tomorrow morning we take ownership of a new car....well a 2008 commodore and i simply can't wait....in fact none of us can but we have one more sleep to get through and then we bring our new baby home in the morning.
what else is news with the dudes here....school holidays have officially started and i am so looking forward to 2 weeks of no school runs....there are still appointments but no school runs and i ♥ that!!! sleep in's, wintery days, rain, boredom, kids fighting, kids nagging.....yep gonna enjoy the lot....hehehehe and when it all get's too much i'll be able to jump in the car and go for a drive.
actually tim and i are going to spend some of the school holiday's ripping up carpet, lino, tiles and revealing the awesome floor boards that sit underneath all that in very good condition ready to sand and seal. we hope to repair the plaster walls in grace's room and prepare it for painting as soon as the warmer weather appears, look at some new bathroom goodies like shower and handbasin and paint colours to redo the inside of the house and do part of the back yard and garden and front yard with stones, pavers and a little of this and that....yep we're on a mission.
anyhoo quick and simple tonight just to touch base and say hey yep i am in the land of the living even if it's in zombie mode. oki doki signing off for now and i'll post pics of the new car asap....ahhh i can't wait but of course i have to....only one more sleep though.
for all those parents out there ready to embark on 2 weeks of school holidays...stay strong, stay calm and remember to breathe. hugs chris xoxo
Sunday, 30 May 2010
what a week...
yes it has been one incredible week, both good and bad, both positive and negative but tonight as i sit here blogging, putting my thoughts down and out there for all the world to read....i realise i am grateful for so many things.
despite the fact that for most of this week we've been without a car as repair after repair was dealt with at our mechanics to get it back up and running, that without the car i could not get anywhere that i needed to go without the help of someone else to take me, that for four days it pretty much sat at the mechanics having so much done to it that even i didn't know if at the end of this time we would have a car or not and the fact that i seemed fairly stressed out because of it...what i am grateful for is this
so yes yesterday i turned 43....wow can you believe that and of course my kids now consider me an "old fart" and i'm ok with that. i did get spoilt with pressies too. a canon ef 50mm f/1.8 II camera lens for my canon dslr, 100ml bottle of mariah carey luscious pink perfume, and a dining table and chairs.
because we rarely use our huge dining table and chairs and the fact that it takes up so much room in the dining area we decided to downsize and pick up a really nice 4 seater (big enough for 6 if needed) dining table and chairs and outdoor proof the larger one. once done it will look fantastic outside in the outdoor dining area and i can't wait to get everything done and sorted and really do up our dining area and kitchen nicely...oh and not too mention the eating area outdoors.
there is also some really exciting news i want to share with you but i am keeping that hush hush just for now. all i can say is i have been incredibly overwhelmed with the fact that i have been approached to take on this role and although it's somewhat daunting it's also an incredible opportunity and a once in a lifetime experience, but i've said too much already and before i give it all away i'll zip my lips and leave it till i can actually tell you all what it is.
so for now i'm done, yep another post, another update and another week that has flown by once again without it's difficulties but through it all there is a glimmer of hope and sometimes that glimmer is a little brighter. today that glimmer and that hope is brighter then it's been for sometime and i am very grateful for that!!!
hugs chris xoxo
despite the fact that for most of this week we've been without a car as repair after repair was dealt with at our mechanics to get it back up and running, that without the car i could not get anywhere that i needed to go without the help of someone else to take me, that for four days it pretty much sat at the mechanics having so much done to it that even i didn't know if at the end of this time we would have a car or not and the fact that i seemed fairly stressed out because of it...what i am grateful for is this
- no one had any appointments to get to this particular week
- although lance does righteous pups 3 times a week he was ok with the fact we could not get there for 2 of those times while the car was being attended too
- steph's paediatrician's appointment with Dr Ken Armstrong was rescheduled till this coming week because he was urgently called away
- my good friend trish offered to help in anyway we needed and we took her up on that with getting kids to and fro school and to the shops as i needed
- and although i don't want to go through that again in any hurry that we managed and we survived
so yes yesterday i turned 43....wow can you believe that and of course my kids now consider me an "old fart" and i'm ok with that. i did get spoilt with pressies too. a canon ef 50mm f/1.8 II camera lens for my canon dslr, 100ml bottle of mariah carey luscious pink perfume, and a dining table and chairs.
because we rarely use our huge dining table and chairs and the fact that it takes up so much room in the dining area we decided to downsize and pick up a really nice 4 seater (big enough for 6 if needed) dining table and chairs and outdoor proof the larger one. once done it will look fantastic outside in the outdoor dining area and i can't wait to get everything done and sorted and really do up our dining area and kitchen nicely...oh and not too mention the eating area outdoors.
there is also some really exciting news i want to share with you but i am keeping that hush hush just for now. all i can say is i have been incredibly overwhelmed with the fact that i have been approached to take on this role and although it's somewhat daunting it's also an incredible opportunity and a once in a lifetime experience, but i've said too much already and before i give it all away i'll zip my lips and leave it till i can actually tell you all what it is.
so for now i'm done, yep another post, another update and another week that has flown by once again without it's difficulties but through it all there is a glimmer of hope and sometimes that glimmer is a little brighter. today that glimmer and that hope is brighter then it's been for sometime and i am very grateful for that!!!
hugs chris xoxo
Wednesday, 26 May 2010
ho deedum......
life is good! seriously......can you tell just by those first few words i'm being sarcastic? thought so!!! anyhoo life is battling on taking us with it, jumping the hurdles, dodging the darts, crawling over the speed humps and wondering why the good luck (just like the rain) has bypassed us in every direction. can one family have so much bad luck that it just becomes a part of life.....seriously???
nothing really seems to go right for us and although i might sound like a broken record it seems so very true. take our car for starters, we can't afford a new one and all we've had since the day it was purchased for us (yes that's right purchased for us because we didn't buy it) we have had nothing but more trouble with it then it's worth. it has cost us soooo much in $$$$$$ and it's now official that in less then 4 years (the time we have had it for), we have paid out more in parts, labour and repairs then it cost to purchase the thing in the first place. of course the first thing most people ask is can we afford a new one.....simply put no. next question that is asked is can we take it out against the mortgage.....simply put no and simply put once this car dies completely on us we will be walking everywhere as my children (particularly the 3 that have autism) can't cope with public transport nor able to use it without support and help.
what this family needs is a miracle and some much needed good luck to come our way just for once. it would be nice if someone could just say we are able to give you a hand up and get your feet back on the ground sound and firm. it would be nice if i could just yell and scream at the top of my lungs and tell everyone how bad things are and someone would just hear and say it's ok chris and just say "we get it". so today and for the past lot of days i haven't traveled so well. in fact it's been like that for a long time and with each difficulty that has come our way, for each bad day, for each person that doesn't get it, for each hellish moment on this earth more layers are added to our already full load. it not only takes its toll on us as a family but it takes its toll on us as individuals already swimming in an ocean of sharks just waiting for that rescue boat to come pick us up that seems so very far away and while we wait for it, we slowly sink.
what am i thankful for? my husband who is still by my side after 24 years, my kids who despite the difficulties they endure daily still make my heart melt and put a smile on my dial, wonderful online friends, my god who is greater then all this and for the opportunity to be able to watch the big bang theory anytime i choose and loving every minute of it because this family can sooooo relate to all of it of course without the nerd/geeky genius scientists these guys characters play so very well in the land of autism/asperger's syndrome with the lack of social skills, the daily routine and structure, friendship struggles oh and the list goes on and on and on....gotta luv it all!!!
what else am i grateful for? the ability to vent via my blog and i'm not apologising for any of it. you know the saying that says if you don't like me at my worst then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best....put mildly that is so true. so to all you parents and carers of loved ones out there, for all your frustrations with the "systems" that simply don't work, for all the bureaucratic garbage we go through daily I say this post's for you because seriously....i get it and i always have and i always will and with that last note i'm signing off till next time. take care and remember i'm thinking of you and your family and feeling your pain with each step you take complete with struggles, frustrations and pain. hugs and ciao xoxo
nothing really seems to go right for us and although i might sound like a broken record it seems so very true. take our car for starters, we can't afford a new one and all we've had since the day it was purchased for us (yes that's right purchased for us because we didn't buy it) we have had nothing but more trouble with it then it's worth. it has cost us soooo much in $$$$$$ and it's now official that in less then 4 years (the time we have had it for), we have paid out more in parts, labour and repairs then it cost to purchase the thing in the first place. of course the first thing most people ask is can we afford a new one.....simply put no. next question that is asked is can we take it out against the mortgage.....simply put no and simply put once this car dies completely on us we will be walking everywhere as my children (particularly the 3 that have autism) can't cope with public transport nor able to use it without support and help.
what this family needs is a miracle and some much needed good luck to come our way just for once. it would be nice if someone could just say we are able to give you a hand up and get your feet back on the ground sound and firm. it would be nice if i could just yell and scream at the top of my lungs and tell everyone how bad things are and someone would just hear and say it's ok chris and just say "we get it". so today and for the past lot of days i haven't traveled so well. in fact it's been like that for a long time and with each difficulty that has come our way, for each bad day, for each person that doesn't get it, for each hellish moment on this earth more layers are added to our already full load. it not only takes its toll on us as a family but it takes its toll on us as individuals already swimming in an ocean of sharks just waiting for that rescue boat to come pick us up that seems so very far away and while we wait for it, we slowly sink.
what am i thankful for? my husband who is still by my side after 24 years, my kids who despite the difficulties they endure daily still make my heart melt and put a smile on my dial, wonderful online friends, my god who is greater then all this and for the opportunity to be able to watch the big bang theory anytime i choose and loving every minute of it because this family can sooooo relate to all of it of course without the nerd/geeky genius scientists these guys characters play so very well in the land of autism/asperger's syndrome with the lack of social skills, the daily routine and structure, friendship struggles oh and the list goes on and on and on....gotta luv it all!!!
what else am i grateful for? the ability to vent via my blog and i'm not apologising for any of it. you know the saying that says if you don't like me at my worst then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best....put mildly that is so true. so to all you parents and carers of loved ones out there, for all your frustrations with the "systems" that simply don't work, for all the bureaucratic garbage we go through daily I say this post's for you because seriously....i get it and i always have and i always will and with that last note i'm signing off till next time. take care and remember i'm thinking of you and your family and feeling your pain with each step you take complete with struggles, frustrations and pain. hugs and ciao xoxo
Sunday, 16 May 2010
oh dear....
i don't really know what to say because my blogging updates are no where near as often as i would like. i have to say it has really been a struggle to feel like i want to do anything....well want to do anything that involves something for myself. all i seem to do is something for everyone else and at the end of every day simply fall into a heap....a little depressed!
i had a few little "thought i could manage" plans for this year....nothing extreme but it seems like any hobby of mine pretty much has come to an end because i simply have no time to do them at the moment and then being pretty exhausted both physically and mentally at the end of the day lack motivation that goes with it.....and i miss it terribly so.
hours increased at righteous pups for lance by 3 hours a week and of course so did my hours and although we have implemented some things to help there with DHS and FFYA planning etc it will still take time if this is going to be successful but at the same time it just means more for me in the interim.
isaac is still in school part time and unless something is done sooner then later we will pull him out and to me as a mum advocating for the needs of my kids in mainstream school...what a terrible tragedy that will be. the education system has set both steph and isaac up to fail and isaac can't cope with much more and steph is struggling. a recent vineland assessment was done as part of trying to apply for funding for the kids next year but they both sit on the "normal" adaptive scale.....weird hey because this particular assessment is now being question even by DHS as it seems very wrong. i know what a vineland assessment is as our eldest son went through all this only last year but this time round the way it has been administered and dealt with has been very strange indeed....and by someone i have never met nor knows anything about my kids.
it has been hectic and for the most part i am barely managing now so i've been away from my pc and the internet for the past week....not sure if i feel any better for it because i just feel blah but still i am blogging and trying to get back onboard with the emails and FB and trying to stay motivated which seems really hard to do at present.
i did however have a really nice mother's day on the 9th. i got me some new slippers and pj's, 1st and 2nd series of the big bang theory and a bunch of tulips. we didn't celebrate in any way...no special meal or outing, just a day home pottering about the place and you know....it worked, the kids generally don't cope with anything out of the ordinary so tim and i keep it very simple and by doing so everyone manages and manages well and for me that's the perfect gift any mother of special needs kids can ask for.
this week is flat out as usual and at this pace i am concerned i will crash and burn completely but what else can you do....yes it's important to keep yourself healthy and well but man i deal with so much and with very little support that you just have to keep going because you have no choice but to do so....yet it comes at a cost....a very high one because if i crash and burn the family does too and that's not being over dramatic....that's reality.
anyhoo i think that's it for tonight can't say when i'll blog again but hey one can only do what one can do. i just hope that a little bit of "me" time comes along and soon.....and with that i'm signing out for now. take care and ciao xoxo
i had a few little "thought i could manage" plans for this year....nothing extreme but it seems like any hobby of mine pretty much has come to an end because i simply have no time to do them at the moment and then being pretty exhausted both physically and mentally at the end of the day lack motivation that goes with it.....and i miss it terribly so.
hours increased at righteous pups for lance by 3 hours a week and of course so did my hours and although we have implemented some things to help there with DHS and FFYA planning etc it will still take time if this is going to be successful but at the same time it just means more for me in the interim.
isaac is still in school part time and unless something is done sooner then later we will pull him out and to me as a mum advocating for the needs of my kids in mainstream school...what a terrible tragedy that will be. the education system has set both steph and isaac up to fail and isaac can't cope with much more and steph is struggling. a recent vineland assessment was done as part of trying to apply for funding for the kids next year but they both sit on the "normal" adaptive scale.....weird hey because this particular assessment is now being question even by DHS as it seems very wrong. i know what a vineland assessment is as our eldest son went through all this only last year but this time round the way it has been administered and dealt with has been very strange indeed....and by someone i have never met nor knows anything about my kids.
it has been hectic and for the most part i am barely managing now so i've been away from my pc and the internet for the past week....not sure if i feel any better for it because i just feel blah but still i am blogging and trying to get back onboard with the emails and FB and trying to stay motivated which seems really hard to do at present.
i did however have a really nice mother's day on the 9th. i got me some new slippers and pj's, 1st and 2nd series of the big bang theory and a bunch of tulips. we didn't celebrate in any way...no special meal or outing, just a day home pottering about the place and you know....it worked, the kids generally don't cope with anything out of the ordinary so tim and i keep it very simple and by doing so everyone manages and manages well and for me that's the perfect gift any mother of special needs kids can ask for.
this week is flat out as usual and at this pace i am concerned i will crash and burn completely but what else can you do....yes it's important to keep yourself healthy and well but man i deal with so much and with very little support that you just have to keep going because you have no choice but to do so....yet it comes at a cost....a very high one because if i crash and burn the family does too and that's not being over dramatic....that's reality.
anyhoo i think that's it for tonight can't say when i'll blog again but hey one can only do what one can do. i just hope that a little bit of "me" time comes along and soon.....and with that i'm signing out for now. take care and ciao xoxo
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